I'm Available

if you read the title and thought about my relationship status..your wrong.
i was referring to the fact that ive been asking God to make me available.
To use me to do great things, to change someones life. To bring them to christ.
whats more amazing than bringing someone to God?


Off topic:
oh, and i hate drugs -.- and money used to buy them.
REALLY, I HATE IT.
the whole system.
it makes me so upset, i want to puke.
i hate it when people i care about turn to those things to fill them; to feel important;
to fit in. its all a lie from the devil.
a lie hidden and rolled in dutch paper or whatever they use.
ugh, im getting quiesy.
whats more suprising is the people you find out that are doing all that junk..
someone i thought i knew really well, has been addicted to marys for a while now.
i see this person everyday and i talk to them. never did they mention that they were
drug addicted or involved in any of that stuff. its really sad.
i just found out and i feel like im a bad friend of some sort.
i know its not in my power.
but still, i feel so let down.
"man, what a fail." keeps replaying in my head as i think about it.
if your reading this, and you do drugs..please, find other
means of feeling better.
drugs are crap.
they ruin people.
i HATE THEM WITH ALL MY HEART;EVERY FIBER IN MY BODY.
they suck out peoples lives and digest them until they're worthless.
just wanting more, something new to experiment.
to feel wanted; secure; popular; accepted; none of that matters.
Jesus is the ONLY cure.
end of story.

i want to throw up at the thought of it.
ugh. i hate you..you drug! -.-

unheart,
Jeanine.