Sometimes, I get a bit too carried away. I run off to conclusions that really, I took out of context. "sorrys" are foreign in high school. Drama is the result. Mhmmm, that bitter spice that’s added to reality. I could really do without it. Seriously, cant we all?
Lately, Ive noticed that I tend to attract the wrong sort of crowd and then i wonder how i got hurt. thus, the drama comes into play.
High school students are so analytical, its sick. people are so insecure at my age that they think that drowning other people is the way up the social ladder. its actually the fastest way to lose your reputation. talk junk and junk will be talked about you. fact of life.
People babble on and on, speaking meaningless words and gossip. Gossip gets no-one, nowhere and quick. End of story.
this is so stupid.
please, grow up already.
Today would be great, really..it would.
Im thinking about dying my hair honey blond. No, I don’t. im totally kidding.
really, I don’t. I just want some change. not dramatic change. i cant exactly pinpoint what kind of change i want. If anyone would be in my shoes right now they wouldn’t stand a day. its the stress of my everyday life that some dont seem to comprehend. walk in my shoes, and ill listen.
All I know is change. Big change, like mom goes nuts and you loose whatever foundation/life you ever knew in a couple of months change. imagine being with someone whose supposed to lead you and they lose themselves and expect you to stand up and take their place but at the same time, listen to every command that comes out of their mouth. confused is how i was my freshman year. Yeah, breathe in trials, breathe out tribulations. dont choke.
I guess im just frustrated. Yup, frustrated with the reality that life isn’t fair. If you ask God to get a deeper relationship with Him, don’t be surprised if everything around you is like the wind. Nothing that’s tangible is ever permanent. Im not sugar-coating it, I promise.
Having my family and my closest friends helping me along the way has really been amazing<3
papalaya, big brother, bestfriend, and more. theyve all helped me stand up everyday a little stronger then before. i cant thank them enough. I might not show it sometimes, but i really do.
on the happy note, even though i have gone through so much, I can proudly say that ive received something more valuable than a pearl necklace or some couture blouse that I would never plan to wear. These things aren’t valuable to me. Not anymore. Since I went from having everything perfect and handy dandy to a life where you never know whats next, its secretly changed me. Not it, but Him actually. No, its not a guy or a person.
Its my first love, the one that I abandoned and stepped on all my life. Since I had so many options, I didn’t consider him and this relationship as a choice worth choosing. Ive been Christian all my life, but ive never been this close to Him. I can hear him whisiper in my ear at night, telling mme that he loves me more than the stars in the sky. He tells me secrets that make me smile and giggle when im not feeling so great. Hes wonderful, really.
Who can blame me for being so swept away?
His name, well its Jesus of course.
P.S: he’s available 24/7, and he has no answering machines. He’s directly reachable. Just ask him
remember to breathe in, breathe out
Jeanine.
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Friday, February 05, 2010
anything tangible is like the wind. never constant.
Sometimes, I get a bit too carried away. I run off to conclusions that really, I took out of context. "sorrys" are foreign in high school. Drama is the result. Mhmmm, that bitter spice that’s added to reality. I could really do without it. Seriously, cant we all?
Lately, Ive noticed that I tend to attract the wrong sort of crowd and then i wonder how i got hurt. thus, the drama comes into play.
High school students are so analytical, its sick. people are so insecure at my age that they think that drowning other people is the way up the social ladder. its actually the fastest way to lose your reputation. talk junk and junk will be talked about you. fact of life.
People babble on and on, speaking meaningless words and gossip. Gossip gets no-one, nowhere and quick. End of story.
this is so stupid.
please, grow up already.
Today would be great, really..it would.
Im thinking about dying my hair honey blond. No, I don’t. im totally kidding.
really, I don’t. I just want some change. not dramatic change. i cant exactly pinpoint what kind of change i want. If anyone would be in my shoes right now they wouldn’t stand a day. its the stress of my everyday life that some dont seem to comprehend. walk in my shoes, and ill listen.
All I know is change. Big change, like mom goes nuts and you loose whatever foundation/life you ever knew in a couple of months change. imagine being with someone whose supposed to lead you and they lose themselves and expect you to stand up and take their place but at the same time, listen to every command that comes out of their mouth. confused is how i was my freshman year. Yeah, breathe in trials, breathe out tribulations. dont choke.
I guess im just frustrated. Yup, frustrated with the reality that life isn’t fair. If you ask God to get a deeper relationship with Him, don’t be surprised if everything around you is like the wind. Nothing that’s tangible is ever permanent. Im not sugar-coating it, I promise.
Having my family and my closest friends helping me along the way has really been amazing<3
papalaya, big brother, bestfriend, and more. theyve all helped me stand up everyday a little stronger then before. i cant thank them enough. I might not show it sometimes, but i really do.
on the happy note, even though i have gone through so much, I can proudly say that ive received something more valuable than a pearl necklace or some couture blouse that I would never plan to wear. These things aren’t valuable to me. Not anymore. Since I went from having everything perfect and handy dandy to a life where you never know whats next, its secretly changed me. Not it, but Him actually. No, its not a guy or a person.
Its my first love, the one that I abandoned and stepped on all my life. Since I had so many options, I didn’t consider him and this relationship as a choice worth choosing. Ive been Christian all my life, but ive never been this close to Him. I can hear him whisiper in my ear at night, telling mme that he loves me more than the stars in the sky. He tells me secrets that make me smile and giggle when im not feeling so great. Hes wonderful, really.
Who can blame me for being so swept away?
His name, well its Jesus of course.
P.S: he’s available 24/7, and he has no answering machines. He’s directly reachable. Just ask him
remember to breathe in, breathe out
Jeanine.
Lately, Ive noticed that I tend to attract the wrong sort of crowd and then i wonder how i got hurt. thus, the drama comes into play.
High school students are so analytical, its sick. people are so insecure at my age that they think that drowning other people is the way up the social ladder. its actually the fastest way to lose your reputation. talk junk and junk will be talked about you. fact of life.
People babble on and on, speaking meaningless words and gossip. Gossip gets no-one, nowhere and quick. End of story.
this is so stupid.
please, grow up already.
Today would be great, really..it would.
Im thinking about dying my hair honey blond. No, I don’t. im totally kidding.
really, I don’t. I just want some change. not dramatic change. i cant exactly pinpoint what kind of change i want. If anyone would be in my shoes right now they wouldn’t stand a day. its the stress of my everyday life that some dont seem to comprehend. walk in my shoes, and ill listen.
All I know is change. Big change, like mom goes nuts and you loose whatever foundation/life you ever knew in a couple of months change. imagine being with someone whose supposed to lead you and they lose themselves and expect you to stand up and take their place but at the same time, listen to every command that comes out of their mouth. confused is how i was my freshman year. Yeah, breathe in trials, breathe out tribulations. dont choke.
I guess im just frustrated. Yup, frustrated with the reality that life isn’t fair. If you ask God to get a deeper relationship with Him, don’t be surprised if everything around you is like the wind. Nothing that’s tangible is ever permanent. Im not sugar-coating it, I promise.
Having my family and my closest friends helping me along the way has really been amazing<3
papalaya, big brother, bestfriend, and more. theyve all helped me stand up everyday a little stronger then before. i cant thank them enough. I might not show it sometimes, but i really do.
on the happy note, even though i have gone through so much, I can proudly say that ive received something more valuable than a pearl necklace or some couture blouse that I would never plan to wear. These things aren’t valuable to me. Not anymore. Since I went from having everything perfect and handy dandy to a life where you never know whats next, its secretly changed me. Not it, but Him actually. No, its not a guy or a person.
Its my first love, the one that I abandoned and stepped on all my life. Since I had so many options, I didn’t consider him and this relationship as a choice worth choosing. Ive been Christian all my life, but ive never been this close to Him. I can hear him whisiper in my ear at night, telling mme that he loves me more than the stars in the sky. He tells me secrets that make me smile and giggle when im not feeling so great. Hes wonderful, really.
Who can blame me for being so swept away?
His name, well its Jesus of course.
P.S: he’s available 24/7, and he has no answering machines. He’s directly reachable. Just ask him
remember to breathe in, breathe out
Jeanine.
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