“loves like a hurricane, i am a tree, bending beneath the weight of his winds and mercy.”
Dear Jesus,
Today i confronted the person who has hurt me the most..she still doesnt realize how much she hurt me. i went to talk to her and i could feel the bruises re-surfacing, the wounds re-opening, my ribs becoming broken again inside me. i felt as if confronting her was the hardest thing i could ever do. i could feel anger and hate on my tongue again. it was in my saliva. i held back my tongue and swallowed. i looked at her and i said it. i told her how i didnt want to live with someone who only had bad intentions and wanted to hurt me. she called me an idiot. i asked her if she knew why i didnt like her, and she said that she regretted my existence. that was when i knew that i could flip it around, to bring YOU glory. i told her that you had a purpose for my existence, i told her that i was made for good, that you have a purpose for me. i couldnt have said anything better to make my point. she called me stupid and said that she didnt want to talk to me anymore. she went into her room and slammed her door. i felt like all my strength had drained out of me. i turned the argument around and put her in her place by stating the truth. i didnt curse, or say things that i had meditated on saying to her. i know you have a purpose for this god, im going to keep walking. even when i lose strength, ill look unto you and ill find my strength in you. i love you jesus, and thank you for loving such a person as me. you are my jehovah-nissi, the lord my banner<3 i love you.
love,
your little solider<3
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