he won too many battles because i was voluntarily blindfolded.

i kept on falling off the edge; holding onto something more thats was never really there. it was all a facade, all a dream from the one who loathes my very existence. i let him win many times, to the point where i forgot about his enemy who loves me, for 5 years of my life. he won too many battles because i was voluntarily blindfolded. 

one year ago exactly, i walked blindfolded into Jesus’s arms, listening to his directions. “go left, go right, go left, you’re here.” he took the blindfolds off and put his hands over my face. i tried to open them but the light burned my eyes. all my eyes knew was darkness and all i did was hide from everything. months later, now i can see without his hands over my eyes to shade me from the light because now..i am part of the light. I am His treasure, his child and children are born to shine. im shining. i am free.